January 16, 2012

So I'm trying not to slack on this blog, and I didn't update yesterday so I'll update this morning briefly. Yesterday i took a day off from the chaos that has been my life lately and sat on the couch with my boyfriend and roommate. All day. We watched tv, played mariokart, and just over all had a relaxing holiday.

But here's my food diary. Now it's back to a full day of school! Ciao!

January 16, 2012

Foods	Calories	Carbs	Fat	Protein	Cholest	Sodium	Sugars	Fiber
Breakfast
Knudsen - Cottage Cheese - Small Curd Lowfat 2% Milkfat, 0.5 cup	100	5g	3g	14g	15mg	440mg	3g	0g
Tomatoes - Red, ripe, raw, year round average, 0.5 large whole (3" dia)	16	4g	0g	1g	0mg	5mg	2g	1g
Nature Valley - Crunchy Granola Bar - Oats & Honey - Twin Pack 42g, 1 pack (2 bars)	190	29g	6g	4g	0mg	160mg	12g	2g
Lunch
Kroger - Extra Sharp Cheddar Cheese, 1 oz (28g/inch cube)	110	1g	9g	7g	30mg	180mg	0g	0g
Generic - Crimini Mushrooms, Raw, 1.5 oz.	12	2g	0g	2g	0mg	3mg	0g	0g
Milk - Nonfat (fat free or skim), 0.5 cup	43	6g	0g	4g	2mg	64mg	0g	0g
Campbell's - 98% Fat Free Cream of Mushroom Soup (Family Size), 1.5 cup	180	27g	8g	6g	15mg	1,890mg	3g	3g
Old Country - Sourdough Bread , 1 slice	90	17g	1g	3g	0mg	150mg	0g	1g
Romaine Lettuce - Romaine Lettuce - 2 Cups, 1 cups	15	3g	0g	1g	0mg	5mg	0g	1g
Onions - Raw, 1 slice, thin	4	1g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Fresh - Roma Tomato, 0.5 tomato	9	2g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Litehouse - Pear Gorgonzola Vinaigrette Dressing (Pp=2), 2 tbsp	50	7g	3g	0g	0mg	240mg	6g	0g
Dinner
Fresh Vegetables - Sliced Eggplant - Grilled With Skin, 0.15 eggplant unpeeled (approx 1-1/4 lb)	20	5g	0g	1g	0mg	2mg	2g	0g
Onions - Raw, 0.25 large	16	4g	0g	0g	0mg	1mg	2g	1g
Milk - Nonfat (fat free or skim), 1 cup	86	12g	0g	8g	5mg	127mg	0g	0g
Garlic - Raw, 3 cloves	13	3g	0g	1g	0mg	2mg	0g	0g
Generic - Green Onions, Chopped, 0 cup (100g)	0	0g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Unico - Diced Tomatoes In Can, 1 cup	40	8g	0g	2g	0mg	800mg	6g	2g
Hunt's - Tomato Sauce - Basil, Garlic and Oregano (Net Carbs), 1 cup (62g)	80	12g	0g	4g	0mg	1,440mg	8g	4g
Barilla - Fettucine, 2.5 oz	263	53g	1g	9g	0mg	0mg	1g	3g
Snacks
Penn Maid - Nonfat Sour Cream, 4 tbsp.	50	8g	0g	2g	0mg	100mg	6g	0g
Cucumber - Peeled, raw, 1 cup, sliced	14	3g	0g	1g	0mg	2mg	2g	1g
Kroger Deluxe Churned Light Ice Cream - Fun Munch Cookies N' Cream, 67 grams (1/2 cup)	130	21g	4g	3g	15mg	50mg	16g	0g
TOTAL:	1,531	233g	35g	73g	82mg	5,661mg	69g	19g

January 15, 2012

Today was temptation central! I went shopping all by myself! My boyfriend sent me out into the big bad world to fetch a few ingredients that he needed for dinner. I also needed to buy a scale so I adventured to Walmart and walked nicely by all the chips, soda and cannoli that Walmart was selling. Did the same at the grocery store and passed by all kinds of fast food places without stopping. A big accomplishment considering a few weeks ago I might have popped by McD's instead of patiently waiting for my boyfriend to finish making dinner. It;s also the first time I went out to shop by myself since the re-start of this diet. Lately I've been under my boyfriend's watchful eye, and having him guide me has made all the difference. But I succeeded on my own today! Yay me! He also made me the most delicious Potabello burger EVER! Seriously. I thought I was gonna die when I bit it! SOOO GOOOD.

I also went down to sample what my apartment complex's fitness center has to offer. Verdict: It sucks. Almost all of the machines do not work, and none of them have the monitors I need on them. Like a heartrate monitor or a timer....or anything. Also the elliptical machine (the only one that would turn ON) was hard to run on. It felt like it hadn't been oiled in a while. It popped my knee out. But even with that I did 30 minutes and a mile on the treadmill and 10 minutes on the elliptical before it hurt me. Exercise, hooray!

January 15, 2012 Food Diary

	Calories	Carbs	Fat	Protein	Cholest	Sodium	Sugars	Fiber
Breakfast
Nature's Best Perfect Zero Carb Isopure Creamy Vanilla - Creamy Vanilla, 1 scoop	105	0g	0g	25g	0mg	210mg	0g	0g
Strawberries - Frozen, unsweetened, 4 berry	15	4g	0g	0g	0mg	1mg	2g	1g
Banana - Medium - Peeled, 0.5 Medium	53	14g	0g	1g	0mg	1mg	7g	2g
Orange juice - Chilled, includes from concentrate, 0.5 cup	55	13g	0g	1g	0mg	1mg	0g	0g
	43	6g	0g	4g	2mg	64mg	0g	0g
Lunch
Sara Lee - Honey Wheat Bread, 2 slices	150	30g	2g	5g	0mg	230mg	4g	2g
Kirkland Signature (Costco) - Sliced Oven Roasted Turkey Breast, 2 Slices (56g)	60	1g	1g	10g	30mg	460mg	0g	0g
French's - Yellow Mustard, 1 tsp	0	0g	0g	0g	0mg	55mg	1g	0g
French's - Yellow Mustard, 1 tsp	0	0g	0g	0g	0mg	55mg	1g	0g
Vlassic - Kosher Dill Whole Pickle, 1 pickle	0	2g	0g	0g	0mg	420mg	0g	0g
Kroger - Extra Sharp Cheddar Cheese, 1 oz (28g/inch cube)	110	1g	9g	7g	30mg	180mg	0g	0g
Romaine Lettuce - Romaine Lettuce - 2 Cups, 1 cups	15	3g	0g	1g	0mg	5mg	0g	1g
Fresh - Roma Tomato, 0.5 tomato	9	2g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Onions - Raw, 1 slice, thin	4	1g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Dinner
Fresh - Portabello Mushroom Cap, 3 oz cap	66	13g	1g	6g	0mg	15mg	5g	4g
Fresh Vegetables - Sliced Eggplant - Grilled With Skin, 0.15 eggplant unpeeled (approx 1-1/4 lb)	20	5g	0g	1g	0mg	2mg	2g	0g
Old Country - Sourdough Bread , 1.5 slice	135	26g	2g	5g	0mg	225mg	0g	2g
g - Pepper Jack, 1 oz	110	1g	9g	8g	25mg	170mg	0g	0g
Fresh Vegetable - Red Bell Peppers (Grilled, No Dressing), 2 g	1	0g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Oil - Olive, 0.5 tablespoon	60	0g	7g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Generic - Balsamic Vinegar, 0.5 tbso	10	2g	3g	0g	0mg	2mg	1g	0g
Onions - Raw, 1 slice, large (1/4" thick)	16	4g	0g	0g	0mg	1mg	2g	1g
Fresh Brussel Sprouts - Steamed Brussel Sprouts, 12 sprouts (85g)	70	16g	0g	6g	0mg	40mg	4g	6g
Garlic - Raw, 3 cloves	13	3g	0g	1g	0mg	2mg	0g	0g
Imperial - Block Margerine, 1 g	7	0g	1g	0g	0mg	7mg	0g	0g
Tomato Slices - Tomato Slices, 1 slice	3	1g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Generic - Green Onions, Chopped, 0 cup (100g)	0	0g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Snacks
Trader Joe's - Dried Apricots, 10 Pieces	180	44g	0g	2g	0mg	0mg	38g	6g
Dole 100% Juice Blend - Paradise Blend, 8 oz	120	28g	0g	1g	0mg	60mg	25g	0g
Vodka - 80 proof, 1 fl oz	64	0g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
TOTAL:	1,494	220g	35g	84g	87mg	2,206mg	92g	25g

Exercises	Calories	Minutes
Cardiovascular
Walking, 2.5 mph, leisurely pace	170	30
Elliptical Trainer	170	10
TOTALS:	340	40

January 14, 2012

So today was a pretty good day. I stayed roughly to the diet plan going over a little on breakfast and treating myself to a Mike's Hard Lemonade while hanging with my friend. But according to My Fitness Pal which is a fabulous resource recommended to me by my cousin Katrina ( It's where I get my calorie counter as well as weigh myself in to track my progress) , in order to lose a pound a week I can have 1830 calories a day. I'm sticking to my original goal of 1500 a day, but if I go slightly over, as long as I'm under this I won't feel too guilty. My awesome boyfriend cooked a calorie-counter friendly Pasta Primavera with pork for dinner and it was sinfully delicious. I'm so glad I have him, he's making this really easy.

Took advantage of the hot tub this weekend to soothe my aching muscles and took a day off from exercising. I don't want to do too much too fast. But tomorrow I'll make my way down to my apartment complex's fitness center and workout for an hour. Every other day seems like a good plan, except Sundays and Mondays which will fall right in a row.

I'm doing pretty good so far. I don't feel much different, except more tired, but I know that over time I will begin to notice changes in my health. Tomorrow I buy a scale and actually read the awful numbers that will be my jumping off point, as well as buy a pedometer. Bought a kitchen scale for more accuracy during cooking too!

Goodnight all!

	Calories	Carbs	Fat	Protein	Cholest	Sodium	Sugars	Fiber
Breakfast
Eggs - Scrambled (whole egg), 1.5 large	152	2g	11g	10g	322mg	256mg	2g	0g
Soyrizo - Soy Chorizo, 1.5 oz	68	5g	3g	5g	0mg	338mg	2g	2g
Mission - Yellow Corn Tortillas (Small), 2 tortilla	90	18g	1g	2g	0mg	10mg	2g	3g
Generic - Sautéed Mushrooms & Onions, 2 oz (approx 1/4 c)	63	7g	3g	3g	8mg	25mg	0g	2g
Milk - Nonfat (fat free or skim), 2 cup	172	24g	1g	17g	10mg	255mg	0g	0g
Lunch
Foster Farms - Corn Dog, 2 Corn Dog	360	38g	18g	14g	50mg	1,080mg	12g	0g
Vlassic - Kosher Dill Whole Pickle, 1 pickle	0	2g	0g	0g	0mg	420mg	0g	0g
Cuties - Tangerines, 168 g (2 cuties)	80	17g	1g	1g	0mg	0mg	13g	4g
Coke Zero - Cherry, 12 oz	0	0g	0g	0g	0mg	40mg	0g	0g
Dinner
Buitoni - Freshly Shredded Parmesan Cheese, 2 tbs (5g)	40	0g	3g	4g	10mg	120mg	0g	0g
Kraft Low Calorie - Dressing Balsamic Vinagrette, 2 Tbsp	50	4g	4g	0g	0mg	380mg	4g	0g
Milk - Nonfat (fat free or skim), 0.25 cup	21	3g	0g	2g	1mg	32mg	0g	0g
Romaine Lettuce - Romaine Lettuce - 2 Cups, 1 cups	15	3g	0g	1g	0mg	5mg	0g	1g
Generic - Roma Tomato Slices, 1 oz= slices	5	1g	0g	0g	0mg	1mg	0g	0g
Onions - Raw, 1 slice, large (1/4" thick)	16	4g	0g	0g	0mg	1mg	2g	1g
Peas - Green, frozen, cooked, boiled, drained, without salt, 0.5 cup	62	11g	0g	4g	0mg	58mg	4g	4g
Pasta - Angel Hair Pasta, 1 cup	210	41g	1g	7g	0mg	0mg	2g	2g
Pork - Fresh, loin, whole, cooked, roasted, 0.9 oz	63	0g	4g	7g	21mg	15mg	0g	0g
Snacks
Mike's Hard Lemonade Co. - All Flavors (Approximately), 11.2 oz	220	33g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	32g	0g
TOTAL:	1,687	213g	50g	77g	422mg	3,036mg	75g	19g

Food Diary January 13,2012 Calories Breakfast
Banana - Medium - Peeled, 1 Medium	105
Milk - Nonfat (fat free or skim), 1 cup	86
Sugars - Granulated (sucrose), 2 tsp	33
Lunch
Sara Lee - Honey Wheat Bread, 2 slices	150
Kirkland Signature (Costco) - Sliced Oven Roasted Turkey Breast, 2 Slices (56g)	60
French's - Yellow Mustard, 1 tsp	0
French's - Yellow Mustard, 1 tsp	0
Vlassic - Kosher Dill Whole Pickle, 1 pickle	0
Kroger - Extra Sharp Cheddar Cheese, 1 oz (28g/inch cube)	110
Dinner
Eat Smart - Fresh Cut - Vegetable Stir Fry (Broccoli, Carrots, Onions, Snow Peas, Bell Peppers), 1 g (3 oz)	0
Pork - Fresh, loin, top loin (chops), boneless, cooked, broiled, 0.5 chop boneless (yield from 193g raw meat)	125
Kikkoman - Teriyaki Sauce, 6 Tbsp (15ml)	43
Rice - Brown, long-grain, cooked, 1 cup	216
Snacks
Nature Valley - Crunchy Granola Bar - Oats & Honey - Twin Pack 42g, 1 pack (2 bars)	190
Cuties - Tangerines, 168 g (2 cuties)	80
Trader Joe's - Dried Apricots, 5 Pieces	90
Kroger Deluxe Churned Light Ice Cream - Fun Munch Cookies N' Cream, 67 grams (1/2 cup)	130
Milk - Nonfat (fat free or skim), 1 cup	86
TOTAL:	1,504

			Exercises Aerobics, low impact TOTALS: 567 calories burned 60 Minutes

Aerobics....&*$@#!

I...am so sore. Like so incredibly sore that my stomach hurts when I laugh and I have to roll out of bed like an old woman. Basically my first aerobics class kicked my ass.

I liked the teacher though, she's really nice and helpful and I've found an overwhelming amount of support from classmates I'd never met before. Kindness from strangers as we all struggle to keep up (some of us struggling harder than others). And I have to admit, as much as I'm lying in bed, dreading going to said aerobic class, that I also found it fun and helpful.

I'm going to keep going. Exercise always gets easier over time. Root for me!

Two Years Later.....

So if not posting for thirty five days was slacking, not posting for two years is the holy grail of slacking.

Hello everyone, and welcome to 2012. I'm still heavy and struggling, even farther from my original goal now then I was when I started this blog. Disappointed in myself is an understatement, but being a true optimist, I believe that second (and third and fourth....) chances aren't only a good idea, they're pretty much mandatory. So here I go. Again.


I'm going to try to commit to a healthier lifestyle, working out, eating right, and getting down to a size 14 by next December.

I'm gonna try a new way of doing this. When last we met I was weighing myself everyday---too stressful! It made me weight conscious, yes, but it also made me feel like a disgusting amoeba every time I gained weight when I was doing the right things. It made me obsessive and bitter, and not entirely a pleasant person to be around. So this time I will be weighing in bi-monthly as soon as I purchase a scale.

I live in my own house now, so I control what comes in and what doesn't. I have a lovely boyfriend who cooks foods for me that satisfy the requirement of 500 calories per meal, no exceptions. He has lost quite a bit of weight himself, and his success will also be my success through his wisdom and help. I'm a great cook myself, but I needed a little help in the department of how to make things I like in a way that cuts those nasty calories. So last night I had enchiladas and a salad for under 500 calories. Woo! I can eat things I like! I'm also committing to no fast food except in situations where it can't be avoided, and even then I will meet my 500 calorie mark.

As far as exercise goes, I have signed up for a low-impact aerobics class this quarter. This will be good for my bum knee and I figure if my fitness is tied to a grade, I may work harder at it. It's an hour 3 times a week, and the professor boasted that her class was a weight shredder. I am really excited for this actually.

So that's the update. I'll begin posting food logs and recipes next week as well as my daily pedometer counts and the bi-monthly weigh ins.

DAY FORTY-FIVE: August 30, 2010

Weigh In: 209 lbs

It's about time I got back in to this! I know, I know, a lot of you out there are saying finally! And you're right! The gap from day thirteen to day forty-five is a large one. But I'm back with continuing results! Now, granted, without blogging my food intake I have cheated. Fast food and chips were had, a soda or two were consumed. But overall I'm proud of myself for really sticking to this this time.

This blog really is an important tool for me though, so I'm going to try to do better about keeping it up. It's so easy to be lazy and not log the caloric content of the food I eat, but I need to put on my big girl pants (or my littler pants ;) ) and just do it. It's important or something.

So yeah. Life has been stressful lately, but I'm back on track! Wooooohooo!

Food Intake:

• Strawberry Orange Banana Smoothie (338 calories)

Fitness log

• Walked 0.8 mile (to and from the place my car is being smogged at, lol)
  

DAY THIRTEEN: July 28, 2010

Weigh In: 228 lbs! I've lost fifteen pounds! I am so amazed and so blessed. I just have to keep this up, I'm well on my way to the 100 pound goal!

In order to reward my efforts, I'm making mini-goals so that I'm never really wanting or miserable on this damn diet. So, today in order to give myself a present for reaching ten pounds within the month, I gave myself In N Out. So. Bloody. Good. And a fitting reward for my hard work!

Food Intake:

• 1 piece whole wheat toast with Sugar Free Apricot Preserves ( 189 calories)
• 1 turkey sandwich with mustard on whole wheat bread (245 calories)
  
• 2 pickles (0 calories. Hooray for my sister picking up ones with less salt!)
  
• 1 glass 2% milk (195 calories)

• In N Out Double Double (670 calories)
• 1/2 of fries (shared with my sister 200 calories)
• Minute Maid Light Lemonade (8 calories)
  

DAY ELEVEN: July 26, 2010

Weigh In: 233 lbs! The elusive ten pound goal has been reached!

DAY TEN: July 25, 2010

Weigh In: 236 lbs (Hello other pound. Nice to see you've gone.)

Food Intake:

• Berry Banana Smoothie with Almond Milk (192 calories)
  

Okay. This I got to stop a minute to tell ya'll about. This little Yoplait Smoothie pack thing. I LOVE THIS THING. Half of this pack is a serving and it's only 70 CALORIES. Add one cup milk (or in my case Almond Milk) and VOILA! Insta smoothie. Now, I wanted a banana in mine, so I put one in with like a tablespoon of water to keep the consistency. Holy cow is this amazing! Super filling, super fresh and super satisfying! Also it's no fuss, I don't have to worry about what the appropriate measurements are or if it'll come out too sweet or not sweet enough, too thick or too watery. Absolutely perfect. I recommend this and will be getting more of them.

• Tuna Sandwich on whole grain bread with tomatoes and onions in a balsamic vinagrette (560 calories)
  

DAY NINE: July 24, 2010

Weigh In: 237 lbs

Food Intake:

• Kashi Autumn Wheat cereal with almond milk and honey (300 calories)
• Hot dog with onions, pickles and mustard (300 calories)
  
• Purple Grapes (100 calories)
• Tuna Sandwich on whole grain bread with Veggie Straws (540 calories)
  

DAY EIGHT: July 23, 2010

Weigh In: 237 lbs (damn, I got a pound back. :[ )

I am SO tired today. I had a really productive day, and accomplished things I've been meaning to for a while, and tomorrow is going to be much the same. Lots to do.

I'm finding suitable substitutes for most of my cravings. Today I was really craving sweet, and watermelon was a really good and refreshing way of sort of staving that off. I know it has a lot of sugar, but at least it's natural sugar and mostly water so it kept me well hydrated.

For salt, I found a pickle to be super awesome. Anyone that knows me knows I LOVE pickles. Never really can get enough, and for 5 calories it suits the salt craving just fine.

The only thing I haven't found a delicious healthy substitute for yet is the grease craving (i.e. fried foods and the double double I've been obsessed with for the past week) and let's face it, there's really not a way to do grease healthily. So I suppose I'll just have to train myself off. It's difficult.

Food Intake:

• 1 piece whole wheat toast with Sugar Free Apricot Preserves ( 189 calories)
• Watermelon, 4 cups (182 calories)
• 2 oz Beef Jerky (140 calories)
• Spinach Salad with Light Raspberry Vinagrette (138 calories)
• Half a Salami Sandwich (326 calories)
• Dill Pickle (5 calories)
  

Total Caloric Intake: 1120 calories

Fitness Log:

• 15 minutes of Cardio in the morning
  

DAY SEVEN: July 22, 2010

Weigh in: 236 lbs ( seven pounds to date!)

Hey guys! Sorry I haven't updated in a while I spent a couple days with my boyfriend and getting on the internet to blog wasn't really an option...

Let me say that he has been really really supportive of this whole thing, and that's making it about ten times easier. When we go out he pays attention to what I can or can't eat and gives me stories since he struggled with weight loss and beat it. He's inspiring and loving and I can't believe how lucky I am.

As far as eating out goes I had forgotten how incredibly difficult that is to do on a diet. I am craving grease and fat so much that I have dreamed of an In N Out Double Double two nights in a row now. I am missing my fried foods badly. But I'm going to soldier on and if I lose ten pounds by the end of this month I'll treat myself a little. That seems fair, right?

Anyway. Food content of the days I missed: 1 fruit smoothie (approx 250 calories) 1 omelette (about 350 calories), A Disneyland Lunch from the Wine Tratoria (Approx 600 calories) Mongolian Barbecue (approx 600calories) and on the second day I slept like ALL DAY and we ate when I finally woke up and I had a Barbecue Chicken Salad and Zucchini Bread and I was SO HUNGRY, I ate it all. (with all the avocado and dressing--1300 Calories)

Food Intake:

• 1 Caramel Light Frappucino (90 calories)
• 1/2 sandwich Genoa Salami (326 calories)
• Chips and Salsa (151 Calories)
• White Bean Stew (135 calories)
  

I loved this recipe so much I thought I'd share it with you and blog a couple pictures of how mine came out. It was delicious!

• Milk, Two glasses, whole (292 calories)

Total Caloric Intake: 994 calories

Fitness Log:

• 40 minutes of Yoga, 12 poses through an instructional video. It was fun and actually really relaxing, though hard work. Some of those poses I broke a sweat. :D
  

DAY FOUR: July19, 2010

Weigh In: 237 lbs. I scarcely believe this. It's feeling a bit too good to be true right now and I'm wondering when I'm gonna pinch myself and wake up. I know the first weight you lose is supposed to be the easiest, waterweight you know, but dang. If this is right I've already lost six pounds. In four days. :O

Food Intake:

• Honey Bunches of Oats with Almond and One Cup Almond Milk (190 Calories)
• Omelette with banana squash, zucchini, ham, onions, bell peppers cheddar and Parmesan cheese made with egg beaters. (266 Calories)
• 8 oz Acai Mango Monsoon from Juice it Up! (265 calories)
  

DAY THREE: July 18, 2010

Weigh In: 239 lbs. What the heck? Did the other pounds just vanish overnight? I weighed and reweighed myself and it kept coming back to this, so I guess it's accurate. If this is correct, I've lost four pounds. :)

It's been a long boring day of sitting in front of my computer sending out about another 20 resumes and looking for jobs all over the internet. I didn't excersise yesterday or today, shame on me. But the diet itself is going fabulously well.


Food Intake:

• Avocado, Tomato and Parmesan sandwich on whole wheat bread (448 Calories)
• Popcorn (105 calories)
• Steamed Broccoli Carrots and Bell Peppers with Shrimp and Soy Sauce (263 calories)
• Vanilla Ice Cream with Almond Joy (310 calories)

Total Caloric Intake: 1126

DAY TWO: July 17, 2010

Weigh In: 243 lbs

Okay, so today was a little bit hectic, I left the house at like 9:30 to hang out with some friends and I grabbed breakfast on the go, and didn't have time for a workout this morning. Bad I know, and I should make it up but the heat outside today and getting my tattoos worked on (I'm FINALLY getting them colored folks!) made me really exhausted. I still plan to stretch and medititate tonight. I think I'll do some beginner's yoga for about a half hour or so.

That said, I am proud of myself. I had every opportunity to go get junk food today and I didn't. I drank my Diet Dr. Pepper and waited to eat until I got home. And saved money too! Yay!

I had a fine supper of leftovers, but lacked the healthy spaghetti squash that I made last night, so I used real pasta and it upped the calorie count by 200, yikes! And I had a cup serving size. One. Cup. Do you know how much pasta that is? Compared to the lots of squash I had last? Bleh, silly carbohydrates and their calories.

I also had a killer sweet tooth tonight, so I used more cream than I should have for dessert. Still completed the day under 2000 calories, though, so I did alright.
Food Intake:

(The Calorie Counter I use is iGoogle's)

• 1 glass white grape juice ( 160 calories)
• 1 piece wheat toast with peanut butter (266 calories)
  
• Spaghetti with a red wine tomato basil sauce, mushrooms, zucchini and shrimp and Salad Caprese (890 Calories)
• Strawberries and cream (462)
  

Total Caloric Intake: 1778

Fitness Log:

DAY ONE: July 16, 2010

Weigh In: 243 lbs (Yikes! That's the heaviest I've ever been. :/ )

Today's the first day of the rest of my life! Starting today, I'm going to get back in to the shape and stop making excuses. Now this is not to say that I have low self-esteem as a bigger girl. I don't. I love myself, and weight or no weight I think I'm quite attractive. I just know I can do better for myself. Help myself live longer and fuller and maybe enjoy the things that I can't do now. Like camping, or hiking or running. I'm only twenty years old, I have a whole life ahead of me, I want to look forward to marriage and kids and chasing youngsters off of my lawn with a cane. And I can't do that if I stay trapped in this body.

So here's the plan. I keep a very public food and fitness diary with absolutely no cheating. If I fall off of the wagon and have a hot fudge sundae with extra oreos and caramel sauce, I have to log it. If I'm too lazy to excersise and I don't that day, I have to log that too. There will be no "Oh yeah, I did a million sit-ups today" posts if I'm laying in my bed watching Star Trek. I need to stop lying to myself about how much activity I get and how much food I eat. Yay, honesty.

I'll update throughout the day, there will be no regularity to my posts at all, I'll just write something when I feel I need to.

Update 11:30 PM : I did really well today. I kept to what I wanted, which is to stay under 1500 calories and excersise at least a half an hour a day. I even went out to the mall where the food court was just /waiting/ to get me, but I kept my willpower super strong and didn't eat anything else because I didn't need it. I'm proud of myself. Yay!

Food Intake:

(The Calorie Counter I use is iGoogle's)

• 1 glass white grape juice ( 160 calories)
• Brown Rice with Celery, Scrambled Egg and Green Onion, cooked in olive oil (310 Calories)
• Spinach Salad with Tomato and Cucumber and Italian Vinagrette (170 calories)
• Spaghetti Squash with a red wine tomato basil sauce, mushrooms, zucchini and shrimp and Salad Caprese (683 Calories)
• Strawberries and Cream (127 Calories)

Total Caloric Intake: 1450 Calories

Fitness Log:

• Approximately 35 Minutes of morning excersise (jogging in place, sit-ups, cherry pickers, arm circles, the stuff we learned in gym class.) I have a playlist on youtube that's about 35 minutes long, and I just made sure I kept moving the entire time. I also did stretches before and after to make sure I didn't hurt myself.
  

• Playlist is as follows: "Better Version of Me" by Fiona Apple (3:01), Eye of the Tiger by Survivor (4:00), Survivor by Destiny's Child (4:17), Pressiong On by Relient K (3:59), Handlebars by the Flobots (3:39), Devil's Dance Floor by Flogging Molly (4:04), Headstrong by Trapt (4:46), Points of Authority by Linkin Park (3:33), Mad World by Tears for Fears (3:47) and Don't Stop Believing by The Cast of Glee (4:16)

• Gentle Stretching and meditation for 25 minutes prior to going to bed. Burned incense (Amber) and listened to a mix of a thunderstorm that I made here: http://www.soundsleeping.com/